over my head

2012-03-12T01:26:00.001+08:00

back from kelong

its been definitely different from the last trip.

all i can say is thanks mg'09 for havin us :)

spending time w the waves in the sea for 3 whole days

makes me think a whole lot.

abt myself and the people ard me.

its funny how we need to limit text messages when sending them to

people we were so close to, i dun rly like it.

but i guess its just the way it goes isnt it?

hah thoughts hmm

2012-03-07T00:06:00.001+08:00

photogeephy

aww my class!

2012-03-04T01:50:00.001+08:00

djsfijdfijvfdgnv
urghhhhhh
major moodswings
smell like fartin bbq
packaging not done. at all.
submissions on mon and tues
i am angry with the whole world.
notice all my fingernails are gone.

2012-03-02T03:06:00.001+08:00

Rpj finally done and ready for submissionTmr!Im feelin all over the place cosOf noel's competition!Had a grt day running errands wThe annoying! Hahahahaha!So much fun!!!!!2 bbqs coming up tmr and sat!Lasalle friends coming over, dad'sFriends coming over!Le familiaaaaa! Like how buddy fromCake boss says it! Ian just updated us on kelongOhgawd its gna be hellava fun!Next friday early earlyFreaking early morningWe stay on stilts!Excited max! Ciao

2012-02-28T23:31:00.002+08:00

you are what you eat.

true thatttttt homie

im suppose to be as skinny as horse-string fries

joke.

today i caught 2 episode of

extreme makeover :weightloss edition.

each candidate,weighing 400 plus pounds

went through 1 freaking year of workout

and lost half their weight!!

thats 98kg yknw!

thats amazing.

for a whole yearrrrr thats crazy!

so happy for them it made me cry.

super life changing!

it shows that its not hard at all to shed those extra pounds.

piece.of.cake.

easy.as.pie.

uhoh.

(food syndrome)

food for thought

:-)

2012-02-24T15:38:00.002+08:00

hola project week
i have loads of work to do,so it aint
a break at all!
noel gift packagin'
drm's cpj (die)
packaging proj.

been sleeping a lot lately after i came bk from morning class.
naize.
can't w8 for that short getaway!

2012-02-19T02:29:00.002+08:00

at the grammys
hahaha i love the last shot,
lotsa fun and cuddles hehehe

2012-02-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

haiyaaaaaa
some places are not meant for you to go
some things are just not right for you to be apart of
so much for being scared/excited.
ohwell, you win some, you lose some.
gna haunt me for abit.
tsk fking wish i can see u agn wingsing.

2012-02-16T01:53:00.003+08:00

random shots taken in feb

***

i nvr really grew up,

everybody else did.

2012-02-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

happy singles awareness day dolls!
ant & i had some tortilla chips & burritos tonight!
it was all good!
2 more weeks till project week!
i wanna go.... butz.

2012-02-11T02:34:00.001+08:00

phew what a friday
long one indeed?
wear-a-skirt
murderer and bluff games on ze grass
super funneh
classmates called me joanna ever since nikesh
wrote me as that (awful) name for our proj.
noel packaging design competition brief
coming home to rest wasn't even resting
headed to nyp after a long while
played ball from 7ish to 9 ish
last minute dinner plans at chomp chomp with the aerospace boyz
+ timmy!
it was all good.

2012-02-10T02:27:00.001+08:00

What a long tiring dayWhat happens to be a trip to daisoAfter school turned out to beA girls shopping trip hahaFun! & why am i not surprisedRadio essay isnt touched yet!

2012-02-06T02:34:00.002+08:00

happy birthday faithy

i love youuuuuuu

8 years & count in'

2012-02-06T02:11:00.004+08:00

holymollaye
man u versus chelsea
intense bodoh
damn bloody hot
controlling my screams all
& then man u made a comeback
woohoo i freaking jumped like energizer bunny
my bro and i went crazy! highfives all
no, more like high forties hahaha.
piakpiakpiakpiakpiakpiakpiak
jumpjumpjumpjumpjumpjump
did the visa ad dance
ahya, one word to sum it up la.
hot!
the keeper so hot, he looks like zac efron!

but so sad we didn't win the bet!!!!
haishhhh better luck next time ant!

2012-02-01T03:10:00.004+08:00

get well soon xx

2012-02-01T02:22:00.003+08:00

oh sprocks, I'm so in love withchuuuu

2012-01-30T23:26:00.003+08:00

kronos le conquerant de l'univers

c'mon c'mon c'mon brain!

2012-01-28T03:16:00.003+08:00

i am so sick of coming back late

and getting punished for it

its not even a crime,i didn't kill anyone,

nor did i drink or smoke weed or marijuana.

i just don't understand the word that are utter rubbish

coming. out. of. your. mouth.

i admit.

i wished deep down that my relationship with my mum

would be as tight as super glue,like besties as some would call it.

you hear mum & daughter stories everywhere, from friends,the media,

my fav readers digest.

it's just not happening to me.

not gna happen soon too.

and it sucks.

you know, imagine your friends shares that her mum and her does smthg together,

they share their secrets,they understand each other.

And then she asks me ' ohhh,enough of my story,what about yours?'

and I'm just pause for the longest time 'errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr we're not close.'

it sounds bad.it even smells as bad as rotten fish.

its a bloody routine.

she calls/shouts me

i come home.

i get caned.

what the fuck

its not even a good story.

no fucking climax.

& at the end of this.

I don't learn from it.

nobody will be happy.

im gonna feel the pain.

she's gna tell herself

'spare the rod,spoil the child

'spare the rod,spoil the fucking child'

as many times as she wants and feels better.

& best part.

I'm gna convince myself that the cane is worth it.

totally worth it! hell yeah woohoo worth every mark!

in exchange with the time you spend with your friends.

fuck man, its not gna be 27 jan twice.

am i suppose to end this happy or sad?

idk.

you decide ok?

2012-01-26T02:08:00.002+08:00

hippie chinese new yeer

& screen print class is tmr,joy!

you know how it is...

:-E

ahyoooooo~

2012-01-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

hello.
you and your iMac are meant for other.
WHUTTTTT!

school's fun!

2012-01-10T00:38:00.003+08:00

ze excitement of christmas& new year

has finally died down...

ITS SO KOOL TO BE

BACK IN SKOOL

the best thing in 2012 is having my own table

i feel extremely happy i finally have my own desk after 7 years!

hellyeahhhhh!!

we're sailin through the good the bad & the ugly

what did i deserve to have a friend like you

hiak hiak hiaks hiaksssss ;)

2012-01-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

merry christmas and a happy happy new year
oh wow 2012 here we go!

my keyboard and trackpad conked out on me
its been foreverrrrr,
on an uploading album spree its crazy!

2011-12-24T03:33:00.001+08:00

My biggest regret washurting someone i have no right of hurting.imagine the guilt.Wish u knew how awful i feel.But i ever did told u to hate me.

2011-12-23T04:11:00.001+08:00

Now i truly understand the meaning of'the house is not a home'And guilty too.Both the men wont be here this christmasI got parties after parties which will make meNeglect myMum.This makes me love my mum more and moreShe doesnt deserve it yknw, my mum is theHoliest hardworking pure and simply the bestI have though i truly have a hard timeCommunicating with her smtimes.Its embarressing and sad to sayWe have no decorations at homeTill the extent i went to ikea to get A small miniature tree versiin today.And even joked to anthony to lend meHis home's xmas tree hawhaw.Its been exhausting doing nothing at homeNot moving muscles just hibernatingAnd being addicted to all the night tvProgrammes,Cant w8 for school to start.I am trying to get my hunger for successAnd inspirationBack on track. Feels like im dead.Feels like i resigned from being The gr8 deep designer i wish to be for awhile.Thankful for my loved onesAnd my friends.God bless them all.Night.

2011-12-09T14:53:00.001+08:00

so glad to meet faith after her exams and ze twins @ standard chartered.
cant believe faith and i dragged our lazy bones to city hall.
we couldnt sleep the night before!

have been jogging everyday except wed since sunday
so tempted to just laze at home and watch the chefs on starworld cook up a storm!
thanks antiny! happy _!

marcus leaving for suzhou on monday early morning,
gna miss xmas and newsyear here!
we gna have fmly lunch tmr at chillisssss
woohooo and shopping after!

this morning my mum called me
she asked me frantically
jo! where are you!
she said some girl just called her
sobbing and saying
'mummy save me mummy save me'
she thought it was me!
goshhhhh.of course not.

2011-12-05T16:42:00.001+08:00

end of nov, start of dec

2011-11-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

i know i've been gaining alot of weight,5kg? its massivethe fats are bulging the arms the thighs the tummyat my grammy'sand i changed into my pjsand then shesaid wah you put on so much weightuh then she kept bringing upmy weight issue for the rest of the nightyeah you can tell im very affectedor not i wouldnt be mentionin abt it.feels as though being fat is a sin?i wish i was skinny, ppl dont judge youif u look like a stick. ppl judge youwhen you look like a pig.i will start my intense weight lossthingthing when im back from kuantanin a week.not even gone and im homesick alr.haiz gna miss anthony and my family.hopefully all gets better tmrand kuantan will be funno mum no dad with me.i feel scared. dunknw why this timeround im so hesitant. but when i go batam or bangkok or phuketwit my friends alone u feel fine.weird. haiz.hope ahma stops talking abt my fat bodycause she will nvr stop, and that willspoil my mood. :/haiz freaking wobbly cellulite flabsi hate you!!!!!whyyyyyy...must be all the bubble teas andfastfood since sch started.ill be back! friday probably.chao.

2011-11-13T01:36:00.001+08:00

sighhhh one year fliesss
i miss the times spent in nyp
my homies,my fyp groupies
freaking one year passed
how did that happen?
this is me show, fusion,
then graduation, then poof!
everyone busy with their own lives.
guilty too. i dont make any effort for anything.
about time that i did.

ken faith ben aaron .... hello???!
missing you all too!

assessment is overrrr
didnt do as well as i wanted to.
but im hella determind next sem will be better.
now im on holidays!
its sucha gr8 feeling!
bet it'll die down at the end of nov
and then i'll itch to find smthg to do.

the day after assessment
believe it or not
i cleared my room
its like a whole load off my chest
i can breathe
i feel delightful in my own room!
woohooo
chillin at home w my teevee
antm,home & health
jr masterchef, plain jane...
loads of hibernating and late night movie
with myself watching the last song & i love you, man.
went to wild wild wet random moment
on friday hehehe then kick some balls.

next week i have it all planned out
1 wk before anthony starts school

awesumxzx gazmo!

2011-11-08T10:13:00.003+08:00

wild weekendddd!
had to worry about assessment which is tmr!
afterthat partyyyyy!
watched 'in time' really cool movie,
made tacos for theophilus,
danny's bday party & street challenge!
my dad's so shwweeet!!
this morning he bought me
macs breakfast and left 2 complimentary movie passes
on my laptop.
oh tuesday, tuesday.
you are too awesum.
ok now back to workkkk
tmr will be gone soon enough woopey!

2011-11-02T15:54:00.003+08:00

i love you
as crazy and as unstable as you are.

2011-11-02T12:20:00.001+08:00

"go home buddy. i work alone"guess who said that!hehehebeyond incredible weekendwith schoolwork to rush after that!friday was USS HALLOWEEN NIGHTwith my lasalle budbuds + A Boys.loved both the haunted houses and thesuper duper fknsdnucnu long queued cylon.blame me for being a noob in uss. my first time.awesum ride! cant believe the queue so longwhat an achievement for the 'patient wait'.

afterwhich i cabbed back to mbs.early the next morning my fmly and relativeswent lim chu kang cemetry (yearly affair) to pluck weeds and visit our great grand parents and so on.

lovely lovely scorching sun! went back to change up

to smthg pretty for ahma's bday lunch!

bumped into brendan loo again! in the gift shop!

marcus' friends came over after our lunch

so its swimmming and soaking all the way till 7-ish!

later in the night...

jeng jeng jeng did i tell u i got a cert for eating 3/4 of my lvl 30 chix wings?

homg i sure did and it was unbearable.kids dont try this!

phew dont even wna talk abt it.

what an experience.

went on to visit benraj at the subaru face off!

so kool!

went back to mbs and slept our asses off.

sunday passed rather fast!

checked out,bugis to eat and walk ard.

cwp to buy halloween costume parts,

mass, dinner,home!

monday was our dst submission.

one down biatches!

went to buy fancy paper after that for our think again! assignment.

wnt home and immediately changed into my costume!

heheheh success! super last minute but everything worked out!

the suit the shoes the gloves the belt the mask hehehe

dont think i got as much candy as i got from last year ohwells

but it was crazy mad fun! didnt regret doing it instead of starting my work first!

did my work at night right after trick or treating.

glad i finished it!

2011-10-24T13:58:00.001+08:00

my dad bet on aos and he fell asleepnot concentrating on the game and he won the bet what are the odds???!yay im abit richer today!this month was mad spending monthgg broke soon.nvr felt so refreshed so drivenwaking up at 9 in the morningeven though i slept at 4.prepared my very own subway subhaha did what i needed to doand then dwnloaded new songsso the ride to school will sound better!before leaving home dad mentionedabout getting my own study table in my roomwhen i close my eyes i can so envision mydream room. double decked so ahma can sleepbelow. and the table under the top bed!with an imac (i will save) and many pretty light ard.ahhh thats what happens when you're deprivedof a single bed. i was thinking. you know.you think when the ride to school'stoo long (note im only at bradell sighx)and all you can do is think.if i ever had a sister, things would be different.i would have more girlfriends and i would knw howto communicate to one. haha wrongly phrasedbut you know what i mean. awkwards the word?adele's make you feel my loveblows me away, even my eyes reacthehe.

2011-10-23T01:28:00.001+08:00

at the end of the day.
you are by yourself.
you feel insecure because of
your family.
they judge you.
they're your family yet they fucking judge you.
for being too fat,eating too much,crying too much.
sitting weirdly, according to my 60 year old brother only having anthony to cry to.
what the fuck.
no wonder im like that.
sorry im like them.

2011-10-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

paddlin' was fun as usual!
reminded me of my ncc kayaking days,exact place where i took my 1 star.
all the rushing to shower, the scorching sun that disappeared today,
dayum. it was so good. tiring sial. but fun!
am thinking of becoming a passion card member and then going for 2,3 star.
craving for chippy's beer battered fish w malt vinegarrrrrrr.
am glad i stayed home tonight to eat with my family, been very long since we ate home food with everybody at home. although i was abit tempted to follow g to medz,oh wells hehehe.

cant friggin wait for next week,
its insanely packed! fun packed!
just like me!
Ha,JOKE!

another mbs weekend,uss halloween night!,grave cleaning,grandma's bday lunch and trick or treat!
wait for it yeahhhh,my costume's gna be quite incredible heheheh!
and all the candy grabbin' mmhmmmmmm!

so bummed i didnt get a tad of tan on me today.
so sad its sad,its a sad sad situation!

sorry to bear my many faces,its a combi of random photobooth moments i took in 1 year.
look at how fat my face is.
look at how phat my phase is.
hawhaw.

alot of fail looking faces haha

2011-10-19T19:10:00.001+08:00

yesyes.

hello october!

many parties and what nots

hmmmm

closer to assesment and holydays!

pls dont rain this saturday,imma go kayaking and

soak in the sun!

2011-10-16T18:59:00.001+08:00

i take things for granted.like faiths blk numberkens blk storeyand people's mobile number.

2011-10-09T02:50:00.001+08:00

haishhhh im tiredfrom all the rain driving!happy birthday feedee lthank you for having usat the tea party!!!everytime i see my hamburgirlsand grimaces i miss mg so so muchhhhsighhhhh i can spend another 3 moreyrs with them manxxx.now at des' chalet resisting the alcoholsssssdriving bk before the sun rises!!another awesum weekend without any work done!!

2011-10-07T03:48:00.001+08:00

needa slap myself!been sleeping lika pig!today i knocked out after the 9pm showwhen everyone was still awakewhats wrong man!haix tired tired or just a lazy piece of shit!dad just went overseas while i wasplaying sleeping beauty.mums heading to msia for the weekends.and i got 2 parties to go to for the weeekendnot forgetting the many homeworkssssss:/

2011-10-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

guess what
i literally slept the whole day today!
like i woke up at 1pm had lunch
and then slept at 4 till almost 7.
wasted a day, why the shit am i so tired!!!!!
:(

2011-10-04T23:38:00.001+08:00

photog yo!

cant w8 for friday!

date!

2011-10-02T02:45:00.001+08:00

this week one helluva busy week!

hello october!

2011-10-01T02:04:00.002+08:00

haiyaaa usual routine
come back late ...
i hate it cause i cant help it.
im freaking twenty, if she gives me the
freedom at 21, then ill patiently wait for that
day to come, but i highly doubt so
so ill just keep on being defiant, a daughter
whom she thinks is hopeless and whatever i
do she doesnt likes. wtf.
just take whatever she does to me uh
anyway i only live once she can tear my
skin for all i care, at least i wont live to regret
the reason why i stayed out late.

cant wait to use the 'im 21' excuse!

2011-09-30T00:59:00.003+08:00

miss my extremely long hair
miss my less-fat body
miss my drive and passion for design
today we had to draw our classmates using dipping pen
loads of fun!
had to write a singlish haiku
change the lyrics of nirvana's teen spirit
and basically everyday is a hilarious day
you're nvr too cool for school!
underwater cammy bloop bloop bloop!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY
AND THE LIU TWINS!!!!!
AND APOORVA!

2011-09-29T00:43:00.002+08:00

who am i kidding,
nothing has changed.

2011-09-22T18:55:00.003+08:00

hola everybody!

im in good spirits

can afford to spread love

to everyone else and still have enough

you know like 5 loaves and 2 fishes.

yeah like that.

i can finally taste again!

sweet spicy sour bitter mmmhmmm

porject wk is ending

all i have done is sleep in everyday

massize headache and tootchache

(dunknow where that came from)

went to sentosa with my favouritesttttttesttest lasalle friends!

(note the impact of the word favourite)

it was the shortest time i spent on the beach

but it was so fun!

basketball sanddiggin chillin monpoly deal

skyride luge x2!

we went to 313 afterwarrds to have stephy's belated bday meal

and tarafuku jap buffet.

womgggawsh super bloatedddd!

i swear i laughed till

all my sashimis jiggl wiggle in my tummy

omggggg laughing spree.

the girls went to h&m finally!

to have a look at the supposedly big hooha opening!

steph jumped queue to buy this friendship band thingy

so sweeeet.

we went to play pool at cine while waiting for our movie

to start at 9.30!

CRAZY STUPID LOVE

another hilarious movie

i can watch it agn and agn and agn

i nvr knew i could laugh so much in a day

it was really a happy day!

ahh what am i saying,

i am always happy!

gah so blessed to meet them in lasalle!

woopy

hanging with theophilus everyday

is always something new!

been eating alot of supper lately!

he drove me to fancy paper once before work

to buy 250pc paper for my cpj.

oh i havent started on it yet.

yay and his grandma and sissy has been very nice!

have you guys ever tried twelve cupcakes

by daniel ong and jaime teo?

it is heavenly sinful omggggg

i can go on and on abt it but i will not.

all the girls working there also so pretty

hmm it completes their branding i guess haha.

mum is coming bk very soon!

i hope she had a ball in aussie!

woopy life is super duper blissful

mwah!

2011-09-18T14:28:00.002+08:00

days passes by like racecars when you're having fun

and when you're rushin (ass)ignments!

been junking for the longest time

now this is whut i get

a very sore throat+ flu+phlegm+nose bleed ooh hehe

mum went aussie on tuesday btw

had another nights stay at mb(ass) with my family on thursday

my lasalle friends came to swim with me awesumness

ever since then i began sneezing like no tmr

went to holytrinity on friday evening cause it was my

grandpa's death anniversary and my ahma was waiting for me.

celebrated jeremiah's birthday at some brazil meaty fiesta at novena

which i came when it was about to close. not feeling good.

whats even betterrrr,

project week is this coming weekkkkk!

1 week of holydayssss woohooo!

sentosa on wed with my yellow tops missing!

sat fleaaaaa

every other day i'll just paint batik bags

and mourn over my sucky cpj and book cover haha.

alright chao!

2011-09-11T01:42:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAA

norfi just whatsapp us

some riddle or question

i cannot answer at all

wah stressssss cannot sleep!

my sat is wasted but its alright

my friday was my saturday

trying to improve layout.

trying.

2011-09-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

happy happy day!
surprised steph at her home!
love my friends cant stop laughing
at them!
spend time with voldermort
had popeyes shrimp and awful green tea
and henderson waves
and more hthtalk!
lovechu!
doesnt even feel like a friday!
miss spending time w my family!
k nighttttxxxx

2011-09-07T00:15:00.001+08:00

why the fuck am i crying
i been though it agn
i can go through it agn.

2011-09-05T10:57:00.002+08:00

trying ma very best
not to start my post
with the letter 'i'
trying trying.

sleepless night doing drm vid
yummy teppanyaki sunday lunch
with my parables/cat class homies
baptism of baby ian chua
and ysabel gave a princess goodie bag
awww
(why are kids so cute!)
catchin' up on work!
media mtg tonight
hmm
praise god,
life is pretty blessed for me
hopefully for all my other friends as well!
the sunlight on my skin
plus managed to get a seat in the chuuuuchu
train!

septemberrrr is gna be grt!

2011-09-04T02:50:00.002+08:00

im so tired
from all my distractions
so so tired.
i havent touch my pile of work
yet im out having fun.
it was nice seeing nami & rashid's family.
i grew bigger from all the good food i've been having
with g recently.
i wna lipo myself.
gdnightx

2011-09-01T02:49:00.002+08:00

i feel so disturbed.
i have nvr had my
photos torn,
thats a first.
and speak abt taking care of
other ppl's things.
sigh my ninety bucks gravis
gone.like.that.
ohwell its just materials.
life goes on
:)
1/4 fish 3/4 duck off
thanks.

2011-08-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

selamat hari raya friends!

i can tell you that i've been living
in denial for the past 2 weeks
trying to close the door to
the one i nvr knew i could hate so much.
but i also can tell you the 2 weeks
were filled with so much joy and love
and it didnt felt new, just too comfortable.
you cant force love.
i am one distracted biatch.

2011-08-29T17:41:00.003+08:00

I FEEL VERY ANGSTY
I WNA FIND THE STEALER
OF ALL MY 3 SHOES THIS PAST
7 YEARS!
MY GOLD&BLACK VANS
MY OLIVE COLOUR CONVERSE
& NOW MY RED NEW VANS
THNK GOD I WORE IT ON NATIONAL DAY.
I WISH I CAN CATCH THE THIEF MYSELF
AND SLICE HIM/HER TO PIECES.
TSK!

2011-08-28T21:54:00.001+08:00

had wendys with my mumdad today
and bought new glasses!
i wont be wearin much contact lenses
cause my eyebags are humongous
and everyone knows i dont take them off
soon enough imma go blind!
just went for victor's band concert at
dragonfly.
what i can say is, vic is an awesum
drummer, it was an experience to watch
a chinese band perform, grt job!

train rides are takig longer than usual
sighxxxxx

2011-08-26T01:42:00.002+08:00

Howdy yall!
this week passed so fast!
(zoom bali)
JOKE.

went to school on monday
had mediateam mtg
followed by mcdonalds @ admiralty
to shoot people eating fries.

was early for school on tuesday
cause anthony drove me to school
woopiedo!
had super cheap food for lunch with my classmates
rushed to print typo fonts for the next class
and then ant&ben picked me up after class
and sent me home to rest
cause i got mtg agn in church at night.

wednesday i had ramen and yoghurt
before lecture,ant sent me to sch agn!
after that my classmates and i went to test print at peace centre
afterwhich i went to meet ant
and we had friedrice for dinner yall

today i overslept and went to sch at 12.30
we didnt exactly had class,
but we had some book sale in class
i bought 3 books,one which was compulsory.
went to buy paper at fancy paper
print our brown fox calendar
went home for dinner (i struggled)
went to cwp to meet the rest
had my yoghurt agn
came home and sliced my calendar
hardcoreee balls
thank god im done.

this weekend will be quite awesum!
tmr imma go open a uob acct
have lunch maybe pizza
maybe only maybe book rtt hehe
go bind my calendar
meet didi fidy & el for dinner
hopefully wild abt wings after that with the guys
wild abt wingsssss omg
awesome sia the wings!

sat night i'll be mtg my poly mates!woopy hamburgirls!
sun night i'll be gg to dragonfly with my lasalle mates
for victor's (lucify) performance!
Quite excited!

love my lasalle friends!
stephanie, issa, kesia, victor, gerald & nicola!
so glad im in c class!

dont ask me abt anything
still as confused as ever
hehe
immensely blessed
:)

2011-08-23T12:11:00.002+08:00

guess who flew me to school today
and bought me sugar roll & cranberry juice!
:-D
another church mtg agn tonight
hmmm
bai!

2011-08-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm
you guys want a gd story?
i cant give you a gd story
i can simply say that thursday leading to sunday
was something i nvr thought i would experience agn
its like i won this v long tedious painful battle
but at the same time i wna hold up my white flag.
i dont wna be distracted,
i dont wna be treated so nicely
i dont wna make the same mistakes
i dont wna lose the person who knows me the best
i dont wna be with anybody
i dont wna get comfortable.
i dont wna be mean and hurtful.
i have like a million emotions gg thru me
dayum

haha
like i said
life is full of happy miracles.
you have to trust me on this one!
my life is a joke!

happy monday all!

2011-08-19T05:06:00.002+08:00

its a tragic love story.
how do i even begin...
even i cant believe whats happening
still speechless and shocked.
gdnight.

2011-08-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

your guardian angel by red jumpsuit

made me cry idk why.

2011-08-16T02:13:00.001+08:00

from glenn's party.

(see my awkward hand hahaha woops)

freaking cold wet monday
arrived in class right on time
but drenched (not exaggerating)
from head to toe. soaked sia and i
didnt bring brolly and had to run all the way.
:(
but at least i wasnt more than 15 mins late
or not the mikechen will lock the doors,not let you attend class and
ask you to come next wk. (i am serious)
phew.

need to get up at 7 ltr

2011-08-15T13:19:00.002+08:00

i still cant accept the fact that sch is so far
from home,
the hour of travelling sucks.

had a weird weird dream

2011-08-14T03:07:00.003+08:00

i've been eating quite alot lately,
i guess thats how i deal with
my emotions.
nothing has changed.

2011-08-13T15:25:00.002+08:00

2011-08-13T02:22:00.003+08:00

stop making use of me,
i'll hate you even more
i wont fall for it anymore.

josh dcruz is an awesum kid
he knows so much stuffs
kool kid. at least my evening was not wasted
hehehe only started playing at 11plus-ish.

my school work is slowly piling
+handburger
one at a time.

this is shroom's wallpaper
" I'M SINGLE CAUSE GOD IS WRITING
THE BEST LOVE STORY FOR ME"
(womg, plsplspls let me be single till im 24 pls!)

2011-08-11T18:59:00.003+08:00

last night was one of those
scary experience i've had
in a very long time.
i have so many feelings abt it and i dont knw
where to start.

dear sean,
im not dramatic
im just super guilty for landing
all you innocent people
into trouble because of
my greediness,
but thanks for everything
anyways.

couldnt sleep last night
got this ache in my heart.
the feeling sucks,
its okay? its not okay!
'its okay' are just comforting words.
hate feeling like this
when such things happen
im always first to crumble
why uh. and i
get so affected until everyone ard
me will prolly give up trying.
school made my day better today
cause of my friends
but now when im on the train
heading home, the guilt feeling sets in agn.

i wish i could do smthg to
prevent all this from happening.
just pay 32 bucks next time
srsly so budget of me.
kinda deserve it.

i dont think i can ever forgive myself.

2011-08-10T01:49:00.002+08:00

bee-leaf-bubble
woohooo
tmr after meeting my client(handburger)
i will do finish my syllabic sculpture!

studying at lasalle so freaking expensive
even the food around there ex
$4.30 for ba chor mee omg srsly
i miss south canteen malay stall
$2 without fail. hahaha.

played soccer ytd night
last minute plan
velly fun and chuan
hehehe

national day was kinda fun and impromtu
strictly pancakes and national museum.
museum super crowded but velly fun!
tmr night will be fun too i hope!

just finish my church vid
gna sleep uh.
eye pain 4everxxx

2011-08-07T02:56:00.002+08:00

happy burps mcboy!
christina damn power
in luring him to school!
im sure you enjoyed yrselvess
hehe

pretty much wasted my friday
stoning and tryna get better...
but by 7pm i was all gd...

im already used to staying home
on saturdays alr, cleaning the house
and clearing junk from my room
i threw away lotsa stuff
stuffs that was worth keeping previously
i threw it. like the lili putt score card,a wallet,a purse,
movie stubs, bali receipts, things that holds
not so gd memories anymore.
im so proud of myself for letting go.
cause im not a thrower to begin with,
junk and me we're bestfriends.
some things were never meant to last or
worth the keep anyways. v sad but true.

left to nana's house in the evening
for jason's bday dinner.
as usual the food was super delicious
and then we played poker
hopefully tmr i get to go to ikea myself
to buy storage for my room.
lasalle officially started i need
to organise my humble simple life ;)

2011-08-03T01:43:00.004+08:00

woohooo
school has started,
been great so far
met lovely people
who will be with me for 3 yrs hopefully
bad thing about it is that im going through it
with the diploma students,so its like downgrading.
feel so cheated! hello i taking degree eh.
but on the brighter side, at least i get to do basics first.
like what someone said, back to basics.
so i can learn from the beginning, whats graphic design
and so forth...

previously i was too drained to post anything.
so here goes,
batam was a short getaway trip!
wouldnt recommend it to anyone,batam is a srsly boring place to go...
but thank god for the company i had.
we did flying fox,first time massage haha ouch,
we did things tgt for the first time!
and im super
duper glad i went with norfi my secsch crazygal91 bestie
and lexine my dear budbud, the best thing about it is that
the 2 of them clicked like fridge & magnet.
sweeeeet! :)
the trip was full of laughter and photos and of course love!
from the jibraman hahaha.
that was enjoyable really.

went to meet my hamburgirls after i reached singapore. :)
morrocan mint tea and some vomit frenzy by veggie woah!
i srsly miss mg and the things we do tgt. haiyaaaaaa.

next up was mbs the shizzle!
i couldnt wake up for joel's wedding in the morning
:( felt terrible. cause i didnt receive their invitation by mail.
(only received it today gosh!)
woke up packed my bags
picked up my ahma
went through roadblock
we were quite excited!
cause ahma and mum's first time there
plus our friends were joining us!
made new friends with bro's friends from awaken
they are so spontaneous i love.
kenbenfaith came quite late but early enough
to spamm lotsa pretty pics and watch the fireworks and what nots from the skypark!
it was madness! i rly felt genuinely happy with my friends and my bro with me
in that pool on the top,knowing tonight we'll enjoy ourselves.
after which we changed,walked ard shoppes, had takeaway mozza pizzas and coffeebean frapps
and deliberately bump into aaron and gloria the bday girlxx.
surpriseeeeee! ate on the 50th floor. awww pure bliss.
the smell of magerita pizza and happy faces all ard you.
i was in this bubble,this happy happy bubble.
we went bk to our room to chillx and that was pretty much it.
quite shagged alr. the next day we dragged ourselves up
to the pool for the last time and basked in the sun mmhmm ;)
so sad it had to end,but glad it happen!
marcus and i stoned in mbs from 1.30-5pm
waiting for our family to come out from the casino.
it as so boirngggggg there was nth to shop or look at because
we dont buy branded stuffs.
until.... we saw brendan loo!!!!
omg highlight of my sunday was seeing my ncc senior hahhaa.
he gave us a complimentary ride on the boat while he was the sampan man
ahhh i love meeting old friends, good ol days uh
like bumping into him in bangkok is not enough... hahhaa.

that was my longgggg weekend.
but now that school has started,
i would prefer to go full force on my studies.
now that there's no one to distract me and stuffs.
on the side, (just like side orders)
there's glenn's vid,media vid and stop mo proj to complete.
:/

oh! cant wait for this friday and saturday!
gna meet my long lost friends from mindchamp
and then sat im gna head to jb with who uh idk!
hahaha.
next wk also quite exciting hehehe.

ok peace!

2011-08-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

haishhh
too tired.
my holidays ended so abrubtly
but i had a ball of a time
at batam and at mbs
with all my fav ppl
thank you for being a part of my life
you reminded me how blessed i am
to have you all around and of course
my family.
shall elaborate more when i have the
time.
i think sch starts ltr at 11.30am
i think. (woops)
my holidays are over
and now my new phase of life
has begin...
did i say it correctly?
k night. dayum home
bed is the best!!!
:-)

2011-07-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

i am lost

confused

annoyed

impatient

mostly im stuck.

i dont think this proj will be ending anytime soon.

i need you to co-operate and have sense of urgency sayang.

really.

(yeah,like typing this

will let him knw how i feel.)

-.-

2011-07-25T18:27:00.001+08:00

pls bring me

to wild about wings

and get me twelve cupcakes

plsplspls

i would love you to death

2011-07-25T02:17:00.000+08:00

the smiling competition with biswax

happy burps raymond

2011-07-25T01:24:00.002+08:00

haiyoooo
weekends flew past
with a blink of an eye
not work-productive for me
:/

spent my weekends with the guys
raymond's bday + the match
been so long since i last spend so much time w them!
wow,the feeling feels too familiar haha.

being in the same crowd ...
rly hard i swear but i did it, huge relief
always good to look at the big picture yknw.
like the wise one would say.

my dad's back
and he's been telling me
to clean my room
clean my life
cause my new life will start
on 1 august.
i get abit irritated when i hear it
cause i dont rly want a new start
(although im so shitty and my attitude sucks
and i offend ppl and make everyone ard me angry
i prolly shd get a new start)
im so lazy to fix my life :/

haiyaaa what to do.
this week is also gna come and go
like the malaysia paytoll. oh ya.
touch and go.

weekends oh weekends
get off my mind
so i can get back in track
on my ..work...

2011-07-23T03:57:00.002+08:00

nobody talks to me at night anymore.
i guess i have to depend on cr again.
or talk to myself like a few days ago.
zzz

2011-07-23T01:22:00.002+08:00

i've got garlic naan,chicken tikka,hariyali kebab
in my system after soccer
mmmm
so fulllll but satisfyinggggg
today was a really peaceful friday
with kong and berry
until 6.30pm.

but at the back of my mind
im thinking of my
handburgerrrs at home...

2011-07-22T03:15:00.003+08:00

ciao
im gna crash
and hopefully the motivation
and drive in me stays tmr and the day after
and the day after tmr and so on
hahaha

you're part of the reason why
im pushing myself however lazy i am.
i can easily just fall into temptation and
spend time with my bolster. but i didnt.
if you can do it so can i rightttttt!?
dayum you're a role model hahaha.

2011-07-22T01:39:00.003+08:00

as days passes
i realize my msn friends
are getting fewer
i dont even talk to anyone on msn anymore
as sucky as that sounds.

c4d and me equals blank.
or maybe i dont bother understanding
it,like how someone takes time to understand you.
half of me am rly thankful for this proj
half of me wished i didnt have to deal with it
cause i wna go wwwet with danny all on monday
dont think i can anymore :/

the thought of orientation on wed
scares the shit outta me
its just 5 more days
im so scared of stepping out of my zone
sighzzz

batam and mbs is mostly what
i'm looking forward to next week
time passes so fasttttt
i wna curse and swear its end july already!
bangkok.we were waiting for the day to come
it crept so slowly, but now its long gone...
2011 waits for no one. its dragging my soul to catch up.
tie a rope to me and attach it to a sleigh with 100 dogs on a 50degrees snow slope.
add in an avalanche too.
yup thats how fast 2011 is.
i can just imagine being dragged by a running horse.

i think i got nth else to say
rly speechless.
its like the ants ate everything of me and ran away.
now the cupcake cup is empty.
nobody wants the crumbs i guess.

work
in
progress

2011-07-21T03:03:00.002+08:00

guess what!
i succumb to temptation
and went to cr haha kill me!
all i was talking to were pretty girls
woopsy turning les alr haha

still have post bkk blues
zaki came over today to start
our handburger proj in c4d
gasppppp c4d. yeah im gna
learn it fast! i better learn it fast!
and then i was watching home and health
and he was rendering something
and then went he turn to talk to me,
haha he got a shock
cause i teared while watching
little ppl big world.
he thinks im weird.
i rly have to give this face
-.-
hahah so funny we just laughed lo
but in my heart i kept on thinking
i vry weird meh??

met kong shrooms and lex at alameen
wanted to catch up w kong one eh!
then the boys came over to my hse
to use my interpal haha.

my friends are calling me out
but i have to do this proj!
come on i can do this.
yay gna watch circle of life in august!
muahaha

2011-07-20T03:48:00.002+08:00

ahh cant sleep
think of this,think of that.
rly sorry for bring annoyed
everytime you ask me whats
100 baht.
so sorry.

i wna try (w) so badly
i wna be happy
faster sb bring meee!
i miss my dad

2011-07-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

shit.

i think i just made a friend hate me.

i think everyone who knws me as me

will eventually h8 me because im

super blunt and honest in a bad way

and i hurt people.

me and my mouth srsly.

2011-07-19T18:23:00.002+08:00

i dont think im overeacting

or feeling the way i shd.

isnt it common courtesy?

i think i have the right to be angry.

stupid people who have no respect for us.

today is take a break day.

i have been sleeping for the longest time

restless and lazy.

tmr onwards

our handburger proj

will start.

cant wait to end it quick

its been stuck on my to do list since foreverrrr

2011-07-19T01:41:00.001+08:00

enjoyable trip with qh and zak

very tired slept the whole noon

and muscle aches from muay thai 3 days ago.

we can kick yr asses now

mahaha nightx

2011-07-14T03:47:00.003+08:00

yay i've packed,
done everything on my checklist
just needa get some sleep!
oh btw ali left today for soccer trials in europe
all the best to my abang neighbour!

went to ahma's house
for lunch this early noon
yeah so hard to get up
and i got lost in balestier alone hah
went ard to look for hoisin sauce and limes
for my mum cause we were gna
prepare vietnamese rice rolls for dinner ltr
that night yumyums
so yummy and it looks healthy hehe
got home and bom!
slept till 5plus ish
with the whatsapp alert tone
ringing away. too tired to layan.
kanchiong spider boil the bee hoon
before my mum reaches home.

met the 3 headed bulldogs too
roff roff!
woohoo in a few hrs time
short getaway,
ok whatever bye.

2011-07-13T05:29:00.002+08:00

the day was so awesum and happy!
got to meet loozetouch for awhilezz,
got to meet nami and rashid!
got to meet sb till 5am!
imma gna crash and wake at 10ish
nighttxx

:D

2011-07-12T03:18:00.003+08:00

cant sleep.

deep thoughts.

happy and a tad of sour lemon in it.

its gna rain.

was reading my past entries

since oct last year and looking at pictures.

time really flies.

feels good to think about the footprints we left on each other

and the memories we made as a foundation.

time flies like the owl in harry potter.

i saw pictures on raymond's bday at fish&co last yr

and vividly rmb the events happening prior to that day.

in a 2 wks time,its gna be raymond's bday again.

and the pictures, they hold happy memories

of all of us.

how do i even begin to choose the right word to stress how much i miss those days

and each and everyone inside this circle?

boom!its pouring now!

i have changed so much

how did it even happen?!

gasppppp loop sided smile.

lord pls let the heavy rain stop!

its giving so much pressure on my bacony shade thingthing

( i forgot what its called!)

i can hear it squeeking badly!

2 more days to hangover 3

2011-07-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

been chillin at home today

2 mins ago damn funny

i went into marcus rm

and saw him talking on the phone

so i took a piece of paper and listed all

the possible girl names he could be talking to,

he took it,read it and we both laughed

and he said none.

hahahaha.

tmr imma go book batam trip

hmm change moneh

eat dinner with my family

rush to meet nami and rashid

me and my socks cannot wait for

bangkok! i am scrolling thru interpals

for potential candidates for

a thai... romance.

haw haw.yeah shoot me.

and thinking of ways to sabo the 2 boys

when they're slping.

cheapthrills.

i feel restless

yet i dont even wanna do anything.

2011-07-10T15:53:00.002+08:00

when i first met him,i knew he was the one"(what bullshit)

"i will love you and honour you all the days of my life."

urgh, home&health pls dont show me such shows im not in the mood.

someday hopefully...

peaceful sunday

with a faulty washing machine.

my eyes are open

and im loving it!

no more work

chants no more work.

countdown 4 more days to bkk!

some muay thai shit gg on!

2011-07-07T19:27:00.000+08:00

tmr i can wait!
gna get a bb hug by feedee.
t

2011-07-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

im not gna so say so much here

because you knw,

some ppl just loves spreading news ard.

although they're rly bad at it.

hmm wonder who.

2011-07-06T23:59:00.003+08:00

omg i cannot tahan

july is fully and truly booked

and packeddddd!

my work ends this friday!

meeting poly friends for dinner at nandos also!

cannot wait!

im sure logo will end by then also.

stopmo prep with zak 11 &12.

and then bkk from 14-18

and then handburger shoot

21-22, need to edit. blahblahblah

maybe 23,24?

27 orientation at lasalle

somewhere ard here, batam!!

30-31 mbs stay (again) with my family

and the ppl im suppose to go tioman with!

loozetouch

i better meet you after yr tbg ends!

90% ftw.

okay gta help my bro animate crashing planes!

and logo for my mum's friend!

BYE!

2011-07-02T16:02:00.002+08:00

life is a bitch sometimes

and thats alright,

i come to realize

some people are just not worth sparing a thought for,

for the way they treat people,

so not worth your time

haha

transformers was mindblowing?

whoever modelled the autobots

are like born to this earth to do this,

its like i cant even make a robot in 3d max and they can?

thanks didifadhliiiii

thank you for spending time with me in al-ameen

lexylove!

one more week of work left

mahahahhaa,

cannot wait for 8 july

and of course 14 july.

2011-06-30T01:02:00.000+08:00

2011-06-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

hate being taken for granted,
in every aspect of my life.
be it work or friend or whatever.
im not your spare tyre.
sheesh.

2011-06-28T00:34:00.003+08:00

i dont feel anything anymore
it must be yr fault and i hate you
theres a picture of us in my room
but i covered yr face with a moustache.
you dont deserve to show yr ugly smile
in my room. thats how much i hate you.

once bitten, forever shy.

thigh hurts.

2011-06-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

why everyone's life super dramatic this wk?
why everyone having issues?
just hope everyone will live in peace
and be happy.
life really is that simple.

cant compare to my life
which is so mundane and safe
plus ma feelings dont get hurt
and im just rotting till the 14th.
just having issues with my size,
which is rly quite a waste of time.
hah.

thanks for taking the effort to meet me di,
and the cupcake candle awwwwww
totally the thought that counts.

lexydear pls pick up the phone.

2011-06-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

10.46am
thought i was the late one.
but noooo,
the effects of yesterday will
stay today.
i better do good styleframes now!
:)
this week was kinda terrific!

2011-06-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

i woke up today and decided
enough is enough!
my ends has got to go!
its v fustrating everyday u wash yr hair
it takes forever to dry, drip drip
and they are so longgggg and weak!
my hair is terrible and the numbers get lesser
and lesser each wash!
that was practically what
i was looking forward to the whole day!!
all of my friends say i look better in long hair
so i decided to keep it,
if not i would have bravely did the tomboy style
im srs!

supper w aaron in admiralty!
expected ken and josh, but
glenn timmy and mikey came too!
reunion indeed! cant believe i reached
home at one!
did some chores
i feel super happy that i accomplished
what i needed to do!
and i miss my hamburgirls
v badly!

need to jog.
hate nuaing in a room click the mouse all day!

lastly, boys will be boys.
none of them noticed my chopped hair!!

2011-06-21T01:04:00.002+08:00

today felt more like the colours on my nails
than the blues.
i survived the day and left to meet
bro in town for some walking around.
somehow i h8 this feeling but
eventually i will have to get use to it.
thats life.

ytd i attended mass w timmy
and during homily, father was mentioning
abt falling in love and that its like you're showing
gods love to the person u fell in with.
if thats the case i dont mind falling
for everyone!
the freaky thing was i blogged abt it
that morning. so it was like ohhhhemgeee
in my heart.

her?
who the heck is she?
she doesnt have a name??
thats sad.

grr i could get use to this.
im always the bad guy,
just like helga.

lets go tioman!
ohyeah that reminds me i swam
on sat but no effect
and my bro glided past me.
now my thighs kinda hurt.

2011-06-19T05:51:00.002+08:00

i fell today it was
kinda fun falling.
wish i can fall in love also
hahhaha omg
am i good or whut!
love you girls!
nice mtg you today norfish!
ok gdnight
so tired